i’m finding it impossible to find the words to describe the state of mind i’m in. nothing fits.

i’ve been an asshole to the people who i love in the midst of my confusion and i’m losing sleep over it.

i know things will settle down but i’m not finding blogging to be the refuge from it all the way it used to be.

this could be for an hour, the rest of the day, the rest of the weekend, or a bit longer, but i need some time. to think, to sort out, to make some decisions that actually feel right for who i am.

this isn’t as out of the blue as it may seem. i’m sorry.