needing help.

March 6 2008 in postcard series

i can’t discuss right now what is going on here, but something large is potentially happening to me.

i know that whatever happens, that i will keep breathing and moving forward with my life, or at least, that’s what i keep telling myself - but in the midst of a huge personal issue, i have to put all my crazy emotions aside and get tons of work done. that’s never been my strong suit - at least, not lately, but i have used up the last of my last chances with everything.

if you can spare a good vibe, a comment, words of encouragement - i am humbly asking for it. i need help. i’ve been in a state of shock for 12 hours now and i can’t really communicate much else, except to reassure you that nothing life-threatening is happening.

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March 6 2008 at 2:27 pm

tanaya

Sweet Bee,

Be Well, Be Brave, Be Strong and take care of yourself.

Sending you all the love in the world…

March 6 2008 at 2:43 pm

CALL ME.
I’m at home all day.
I can’t find your number. I lost a lot of stuff in the move. Or send me your number. For cryin’ out loud.

March 6 2008 at 3:37 pm

Jenn

Just remember that little law of attraction….what you are thinking will come back to you….sending happy thoughts your way…

March 6 2008 at 7:37 pm

Vanessa

love, love, love, love, love, love, love, love, love….

March 6 2008 at 8:21 pm

missbliss421

i’m here, darling…let me know if i can help.

March 6 2008 at 9:59 pm

Loralee

I’m feeling a strong wave of empathy for you.
I’m so sorry.
Hugs and love, Sweet Bee.

March 6 2008 at 11:49 pm

rubygirl76

The Guest House — Rumi

This being human is a guest house.
Every morning a new arrival.
A joy, a depression, a meaness,
some momentary awareness comes
as an unexpected visitor.
Welcome and entertain all!
Even if they’re a crowd of sorrows,
who violently sweep your house
empty of its furniture,
still, treat each guest honorably.
He may be clearing you out
for some new delight.
The dark thought, the shame, the malice,
meet them at the door laughing,
and invite them in.
Be grateful for whomever comes,
because each has been sent
as a guide from beyond.

*********
sending you warm hugs, my dear…

March 7 2008 at 6:29 am

hele

I’m sending hugs and loads of good thoughts. They fly towards you on golden wings across blue skies and stars. Each one turns into a flash of gold light as they gently land on you, filling you with power, courage and self love.

Good luck my friend I am thinking of you.

Alan Cohen:
It takes a lot of courage to release the familiar and seemingly secure, to embrace the new. But there is no real security in what is no longer meaningful. There is more security in the adventurous and exciting, for in movement there is life, and in change there is power.

March 7 2008 at 8:05 am

katiec

be well. be happy.

March 7 2008 at 11:57 am

Martha

You are in my thoughts, bee.

March 7 2008 at 2:17 pm

Bohemian mom

(((((((bee)))))))) big hugs!!

There’s a quote that I can’t remember word for word but it’s something like……
“when the ground gets shaky beneath you, and you wonder if you can hold your own, just look back to the unbelievable trail you’ve already blazed.”

You will be ok, my friend…you always are. Take good care and be gentle with yourself
xo

March 8 2008 at 2:54 am

leah

sending love and good vibes your way!! xoxoxo

March 8 2008 at 5:09 am

darlene

you know that i have been thinking about you for days and sending you love and hope and then more love again .. smooches wrapped around you, xo

March 8 2008 at 12:29 pm

Megan

Sweet Bee.

I’m sending you great amounts of love and calm.

Remember the simple quote:

“What does not destroy me, makes me stronger.”
Friedrich Nietzsche

March 8 2008 at 12:29 pm

Megan

oh, i forgot your big hug!!

((({{{{[[[[bee]]]]}}}})))))

March 10 2008 at 1:25 am

bee

it worked, everyone.

unfortunately, to write it out for the bajillionth time would only be exhausting….but the conflict has resolved itself. positively.

let’s just say there was an issue between me and my closest friend…feelings were incredibly hurt and things were said that shouldn’t have been…relationships were all of a sudden on the line…we took some distance. (which for me, induces lack of appetite, insomnia, and anxiety).

and then, we talked. it’s funny how just a few days can seem like eternity. and i was very honest about my feelings, and they were understood. (!)

so i feel good. as a (somewhat) buddhist, i take every opportunity i can to humble myself, but this time around, i made sure my boundaries were known. and respected.

and they were. i’ll return soon with better stories to tell.

thanks again, to you all.
xo